My stomach is damnnn pain ! Boo ! It`s so pain until it`s making my heart hurt. Gosh. Anyways, im feeling damn fucked up now. My feelings are so mixed up because im so unsure of everything and i fucking hate this. I am very sure of my answer when my friends ask me if i still like marcus, and my answer would be a straight no. But yet i dont know why everything he do affects me so much. I told him i was attached ; which was a lie, just so tht i wouldnt be the cause of quarrel btwn he & his gf becus his gf thot tht he was 2-timing her with me. Which i think is damn dumb.Anyways, why should i even fucking care if they quarrel or not? Its tht bitch who stole him away from me .Gosh. I cant be so KIND-hearted anymore ehs? Hahs.

I cried in the bus on the way to school today as i thought back about me & him. I seriously was so sure of myself that i had forgotten about him but i guess tht i was just forcing myself to forget him. Arghs, fuck tht ! How am i supposed to move on like this? ;( Boohoohoo. Someone pls drag me out of this shithole. Why is he still holding on to me when he has got his gf? Why does he have to talk about our past when he knows its gonna hurt? Hais.. Fuckk. Im feeling so so exhausted now, so exhausted of having to keep my tears back, so exhausted of having to act infront of my frens. Arghs. Someone pls help me...

i'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.
i'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.
i'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.
i'd rather have the one who holds my heart.. yeah.
i found this one thing is true,that i'm nothing without you.
i know better now...

I guess i miss you boy.